The last time I posted was a while back, and a lot has happened since then.

I met a wonderful girl.
I graduated from my master's with a 4.0
I was accepted into medical school.
I bought a Rolleiflex 2.8E
I bought a Leica M8.2
I finished my first semester of year one classes at said med school.

Now, I am here, and it is currently 2am. Sitting with nothing but the sound of my tingling radiator.
I am supposed to be up early tomorrow for an early morning study session.

This passed winter, I realized will be the last time I will be free to do what I want. I now have to start preparing for internships, doctor shadowing, and studying for Step 1 exam.

My focus has been leaning towards cancer. I really want to help the terminally ill who suffer from such a threatening disease. I have chosen toward Radiation Oncology. If not that, then surgical oncology. I just think I don't feel prepared as I should, and it's hard to make such drastic life decisions at this time.

And in terms of future endeavors, I was talking with my girlfriend tonight on life as a doctor once I pay off those loans; that I want to only live by normal means, and spend the rest of my income on funding missionaries and printing Bibles. It's a far off plan, but I think it is something I hold pretty close to. I just hope that integrity is still there when I am finished, because it is quite a sacrificing goal.

Anyway, that is mostly what has happened in the past year I have been absent. Check back later for any more updates, and I apologize in advance if they happen to fall few and far between.

uppercut on the rooftop


caterine bokeh


loneliness on the pier


west village portrait

I honestly have no idea what to write about. I feel like I should be writing, though, because I haven't really talked about anything going in my life lately.

I've spent the last several days working on my essays for medical school. It's challenging at times, because I try to align myself to their requirements. At the same time, I have to speak about myself, making me appear comely to the staff that reviews it. Selling yourself is usually the term given to it.

I feel a major lacking in my requirements in extracurricular activities. While I have been on many a volunteer job, I am worried it will fall below a lot of what other people have on their applications. I wish I had the opportunity to do exciting things that build an impressive resume. At the same time, I don't want to make my application look more grandiose than it actually is. It might become even worse, where it starts to become a lie. And that's the last thing I'd want.

Here's something I miss. My apartment.

so many things going on lately. hard to keep up. here's an older picture of me.

more images taken on the Exakta 66 Mod II:


i liked the depth of field in this shot.


what a nice smile :D


blue chairs

my brother is in town from LA. i feel good to have him here until the end of the year. so far we've just been hanging at my favorite spots around town. i want to mention that yesterday confirmed that i really don't like tapioca beads in my tea.

today is Christmas and it feels weird to me. I don't have a tree up or anything at my house. It's mainly because we just stopped caring about putting it up and saw no need. It's family that matters.

but yes, i've been listening to weezer christmas on repeat. today will be spent bumming until noon, and then we head to a Christmas party.

last year this time, i remember something very painful that happened to me. and i still can't believe it's been a year. if you're reading this, i hope you're doing okay. and i hope your boyfriend is treating you well.

here are two images from the latest set with nina again. don't know why, but i keep using this girl.